I’m not sure if I’ve ever written a letter to you on this blog. But, I kinda hope one day you will see this. . .

Dear Nuggy Boy,

You are something special.  You make me a big ball of mushy emotions.  I thought that crazy emotional rollercoaster was going to end after my pregnancy but, it just made it’s way into my personality, it’s here to stay.

I Love you, I more than Love you. I don’t know what that is but, that’s what I feel.  The joy you bring to my life is just not measurable because it’s constantly growing.  I had NO clue that the love would run this deep within me.  No clue.  I knew I’d love you, you’d be mine, I had no clue though Milo.

With each passing day we spend together I grow more proud of you.  You learn something new each day. You grow smarter and smarter, funnier and funnier.  I hope you realize how much you are loved by every single person that has ever met you! That is something special.

When I was pregnant with you I had So many fears.  The biggest one being that I would be a bad Mother.  Like, I wouldn’t know what to do with you.  Irrational fears, “how is he going to learn how to sit up, roll over, crawl, talk, etc.”  Every time you master a new skill I feel like it is a small victory for me as your Mother. I am your teacher, I feel so overwhelmed with happiness when you learn something new.  Like, I’m doing my job correctly.  That’s such a relief. I don’t want to fail you. I know that at some point in life it will happen, but, I will try my hardest to never let it.

You began walking last night, out of no where. You waited until your Dad got home to do it.  It was one of the most amazing things I’ve ever watched you do.  I was filled to my eyebrows with happy emotions.  I hope you could feel how proud of you we were.  I think you did, you were very proud of yourself!  I look forward to many more “mil-o-stones” with you my sweet sweet boy.

It’s amazing the love I have for you.  You thoroughly embarrassed me last week, and now I can’t stop gushing over you! You’ve really got a hold on me.

Every time I hear this song, I wail up with tears.  It’s for you.  I feel like she wrote this song for me to sing to you at night when I put you to bed.

Do you remember when we met?
That’s the day I knew you were my pet
I want to tell you how much I love you

Milo, you are such a lucky boy. You have TWO parents that adore you, will do anything for you, and that you truly are the center of their universe.  EVERYTHING comes second to you.  I hope you grow up knowing that what you’ve got is special.  Not every child receives the love you do.

I LoveYou,

Mommy