Mercer trimmed a tree today that was covering my car in sap.

It was around 90 degrees outside today. He was covered in sweat & he was happy to do it & proclaimed just how fun it was, several times.

Let’s recap: he had fun sweating & doing manual labor for close to 2 hours.
I will never understand men. I sat in the air conditioning on my candy ass looking at a huge pile laundry I was supposed to be folding. (he later folded ALL the laundry. He had to of done something bad. I’ll update when I figure out what it was. Now that I’m thinking about it he did the dishes too. Something fishy is going on!)

Seriously.

It’s 5:30 pm & I’m drowning myself in chocolate cake. I really don’t even eat sweets! The thing is, I don’t drink that much either. I had cake in the house, I didn’t have any alcohol. But, holy hotcakes is My child driving me bonkers. I should also mention that Milo is taking a nap I just put him down for. Yeah…at 5:30pm. STOP it, I can feel you judging me!

I had to make him take another nap. He was overly tired, & I was overly tired of him.

For the past 2 weeks Milo has been going through some sort of change. Every day it is countless hours of whining. Like, everything he says is said in a whining tone. TRUST ME, it would make Mother Theresa go bonkers!  He’s also been more defiant than usual. Whining + Shitheadedness = Chocolate-Cake-Coma-Mama.

My husband has a long daily schedule. He leaves at 5am & usually gets home somewhere around 7pm. Mon-Fri. I am solely responsible for Milo in that time frame. You’re like “yeah, so what, your ARE his Mom?!” And I’m like..gonna go crazy.

You see…I never really get a legitimate break. A break from Mothering. Sure after he goes to sleep at night I do but that SO doesn’t count. I’m not even talking like him & his Dad go out for a few hours & do boy stuff on the weekends or anything. We do everything as a family on the weekends because we pretty much have an hour together each week night & that’s not a lot.  & really? It’s all my fault. I never let anyone watch Milo. VERY rarely, over night? Unfuckingheardof. I can’t bring myself to do it. I guilt myself, or tell myself he will hate it & be upset, & ohmygod how could I send him away when all he wants is ME? How sad.  The thought of him being overnight somewhere & being upset because he wants his parents breaks my heart & I wouldn’t want to put him through that. Or make him feel like I don’t want him around or something.

But, I have to tell you, I need to get over it. Seriously. Milo has spent the night with someone for a weekend when he was 6months old & that’s it. Aside from that he’s never been away from me for more than a few hours.

It’s catching up to me. I notice my patience getting thinner, me being snappier, it taking less & less for me to get my feathers ruffled. I hate it. Sometimes I think I can actually feel my blood pressure rising. I truly think a little break now & again would be healthy for all three of us. Mercer & I never ever everrrrrrrr even go on dates. We’ve had like one in god knows how long.

So, I think next week I’m going to let my Mother take him over night. My Mother lives with my Brother & his family & Milo loves his cousins. I think he will have a great time. I’m going to try my hardest to not let myself get in the way of it. I BET he would even have fun.  I’m hoping a break like that will leave me feeling more refreshed so I can be a better Mom. For the record: I think I am an excellent Mother. I don’t even care if that makes me sound like I have a big head. Everything I do is with Milo in mind. My world revolves around being the best Mother I can be for him, & I don’t think I do a bad job at it. He’s always my priority, that’s why I think this is important. Other than Mercer & I, My Mom is one of his absolute favorite people & he’s always comfortable with her. I know he will be safe in their home! For heavens sake my Brother is a police officer, with a police dog at their home! I don’t really know where he would be more safe or loved than there!

So maybe I’ll have a refreshing post update next week. Or maybe I’ll be 8lbs heavier from chocolate cake?!

I’ve been trying to get Milo on video singing his abc’s for like 2 months now. He’s obsessed with the phone though (what i take videos with) so it never works out. Sometimes I can try & hide it & take video of him but we usually only get half way through the alphabet before he realizes what I’m doing & goes bananas for the phone.  The only reason I want to get him on video for that is because when he gets to L,M,N,O,P it is straight up monster growling sounds that come out of him for some reason & it’s hilarious.

But, I figured I’d give a little Milostone update & this video is part of it, which I was only able to shoot that much because I was behind him & he didn’t know I was filming him!

He’s actually known how to identify his ABC’s for a little while. I have NO CLUE how he picked that up so easily but he did. He can do the same with numbers one-ten. Colors? FORGETABOUTIT. Like he knows green, 80% of the time & that’s it.  He can identify a few shapes but it’s extremely hard to understand him saying “triangle” so I’m the only one that actually knows what he is saying. Goes without saying that I’m very proud of him, obviously that’s why I’m sharing this, & this is the place where I document things like this happening.

One thing other than general learning that I’m proud of is that he’s been really well behaved when we’ve needed him to be in public lately. We’ve had him at two weddings in the past three weeks & we received a handful of compliments at each wedding about how good & well behaved he was. That makes me really happy. Especially at the wedding last saturday because he was solely up to his Dad ALL DAY saturday. I wasn’t there to help keep him on track & in line what so ever & he did an excellent job with his Dad & Gramma Linny. Also- side-note: Saturday night was the first time I’ve ever sent Milo home with someone else & had them put him to bed for me. He left the wedding with my Mom around 9:30 & she brought him home & put him to bed for us. I was grateful because we got to enjoy the rest of the night & she didn’t mind at all, neither did Milo apparently. I’m a very attached parent, so that was a pretty big deal for me. Milo has never spent the night anywhere, aside from when he was a few months old when we went to LA for the weekend. That was the only time we’ve not put him to bed really.

 
I think we are getting closer  to a point where potty training is a realistic idea. He’s extremely interested in what happens on the toilet. He follows us, looks in the toilet, grabs toilet paper for us, & this is really gross but when the dog goes outside he is just as interested in the dog going to the bathroom which is something completely new. So maybe in a week or two we will try it again & see how it goes. No pressure on him of course but man oh man it will be amazing to not change & buy diapers anymore.

So there’s a little update on Milo, he is 27 months today.