I originally wanted to wait until Milo was six months to start him on other foods aside from formula. Within this past week he just does NOT seem satisfied with formula. I could literally have a baba in his mouth every hour pretty much… I don’t, I’m just sayin’.  I eat an avocado often with lunch so today as I was mashing it up I put some on the tip of my finger and put it in his mouth. He made a typical bad face the first time. The second time, he scarfed it down. He seemed as though he loved it. While he was sitting in his jumperoo I sat on the couch and ate my lunch and he just watched me the entire time.  Oh did I mention that I’m finally starting to see the signs of actual TEEEEETH! He has to little bulges on his bottom gums. They aren’t white yet but, bulges none the less. He’s been making chewing motions this week also, thats what really prompted me to put a little avocado in his mouth.

So I just got off the phone with Kaiser and they told me that 5 months is ok to start a baby on a few things if they are giving the sides of readiness. Which to me I believe he is. So I got a run down of the do’s and don’ts of first foods. When I told the lady we were planning on making our own food she was beyond excited recommending books to us and stuff. She was great. So this weekend Milo will be five months, and I think we will celebrate his birthday with some pears! I’m super excited to try food out on him. I think he’s going to do great. Mercer and I have been talking so much about this day and we are both so excited to make his food! I think a Saturday trip to Goores is in order to get some feeding supplies and to lust over the stroller I want. I haven’t been since MJ has made his arrival. I love that store!

I’ve been trying to Blog since Sunday about multiple things…Milo was a complete handful yesterday so that just didn’t happen. The only thing I can think is that his toothies are giving him trouble again. for about two months he’s been giving all the signs of teething minus an actual tooth in sight. My sister-in-law had horrible teethers and she said that her doctor told them that their teeth can move around…like come down and then go back up again. Pretty much just making them miserable. I think this may be what is going on with Milo. Cause usually he isn’t a little turd.

Also Ive woke up to a pee drenched child like three days in a row now. And this morning he was in my bed when it happened! Being a first time Mom I listened to my Mom and other older veteran mothers out there in them saying they started their kids on rice cereal really early. They all told me it would be fine to start him on it at two months. So, I did. He really liked it too. And it instantly helped me get  at least two more hours of sleep. So I was like wow this shit is awesome. No, Not awesome. MY doctor said NO and then I realized why. Baby tummy isn’t ready for this stuff. Milo was starting to have a hard time pooing like one poo would be normal and then he’d have a rock poop. So we took him off that stuff and just put him back on 100% formula. AND he’s doing just fine with it. Except his a frickin’ oinker. Like 6oz and homey looks as though he could pound another ounce. So at bedtime I’ve been giving him a 7oz baba. So with more formula intake lately cause of not having any cereal in his diet anymore he’s a pee machine. This morning I had a giant pee stain in my bed. Lovely. I’m starting to wonder if all of my poo/tummy issues stem from my Mom starting me to early on that stuff!

In five days Milo will be five months old. I really can’t believe it… I can not wait to start feeding him real food! I know he’s starting to get ready. He’s making chewing motions with his mouth. Mercer and I are super excited to start making his baby food. I can’t wait and it makes me happy to know that we will be making his food. I can’t wait til we get the OK from the doctor to start trying some foodies out on him.

Ok so on Monday Milo will be eight weeks old. He’s still not sleeping through the night. Waking up twice, feeding, and then going back to sleep, usually until 7:30 am-ish. He’s been eating like a PIG the past few days. So I know he’s going through a growth spurt right now. I feel like he eats well before bed but, he is still waking up atleast twice nightly.

So does anyone have any tips or tricks on how to get the little monster to sleep ? Even a five hour block would be cool. Mama is dying from not getting any solid sleep!!!

Help…please!!

Milo is three weeks today!
AND in even bigger news: while lying on his tummy today he rolled to his back. (every time!)
How Radical is that?!?! My mom and I were in awe of him doing this.
I’m a proud mama to say the LEAST!

Xoxo

Milo Jake Hawks made his arrival on April 20th, 2009 at 5:28pm. The C-section went great. Scar tissue was actually really minimal and wasn’t a problem at all. The ten minutes before I went into the O.R. were the scariest 10 minutes of my entire life. But once it all got started it wasn’t bad at all, and totally worth it all. I’d do it all a hundred times over for my little MILO.

Recovery has been going well so far. Im still pretty sore but it isn’t too bad. Milo has changed our lives. We are absolutely head over heels in love with him. Mercer has been an AMAZING father. Seriously, Im amazed by it all and it makes me love him even more than ever. We Love being parents. Yesterday was his first day back at work, and night away from us. HE will be coming home to us tonight, so we are very happy about that.

Blogs will probably be few and far between for a while since we have a lot of adjusting to do.

I’m going to try and get an email with pictures together in the next few days to send out to those of you that don’t have facebook. Be prepared for some serious cuteness!

Hope everyones doing well!

XOXO,

Mama Kristi

So today I had my follow up appointment with my OB. Did another ultrasound to check out the babe and his amnio fluid. Everything looks great. Heart rate was perfect and she said he looks like he already has strong little lungs! Good Stuff!!!

So we went over everything, the good, the bad, and the scary and then scheduled the C-Section. Monday, April 20th 2009 The baby is going to be here! Super exciting and suppppppppper scary all at once.  I’m actually not as scared as I was. I’m pretty at ease as of today. So Sunday I go in for some labs and then Monday at 1:30p.m. we have to be at the hospital. The surgery itself is scheduled to start at 3:30p.m. Of course if there are any emergencies our surgery will come after theres.

So the surgery can take anywhere from 40 minutes to 2 hours. The doctor said she will have no idea how long it will take until they open me up. She told me that it could take longer than normal if my scar tissue has wrapped itself around anything important in there. I’m confident everything will go fine. I’m in the safest place I can be if anything does happen to go wrong.

My doctor said that I will more than likely want to take a nap after surgery. I know myself and KNOW I will need a nap. So, Mercer and I talked and we are requesting that only our parents, and whomever is bringing our parents visit the actual day of surgery(4/20/09). I’ll be kind of out of it and there will be lot’s going on we need to adjust to the first evening. We will be there for three days if everything goes according to plan so starting day two anyone can come visit us!!!

Also, when you come to Kaiser here are a few helpful tidbits of info:

It’s Kaiser in Roseville. Do Not go to the actual hospital. There is a brand new labor and delivery area that you will go to. I think if you drive around the parking lot you will see signs directing you to it.  Also, bring a photo ID cause they will not let you past security to visit us with out one. AND Kaiser has my Keller last name still so when you ask for my room info ask for Keller, Not Hawks.

Okie Dokie. I think thats all for nowwwwwwwwww! Yay.

Jeeze. Rocky and I just woke up for the day and it’s freezing in here! I had to turn the heater on and make him come snuggle me on the couch for a few minutes to attempt to get warm. 

So yesterday we had our Version appt. scheduled for 1:00p.m. I slept horribly the night before(whats new?) I had a list of things I wanted to do in the morning before we had to go in at 12:30p.m.  But I ended up falling asleep for a while and Mercer didn’t wake me up until 12:05p.m. to get ready. We rushed and made it by 12:40p.m.  We didn’t end up leaving the hospital until 5:00p.m.  It was such a long day. I guess the reason it all was taking so long was cause they had to have a Doctor and O.R. available for me once they started my version, just in case it was needed. 

I spent a good portion of the time just watching the monitors they had me hooked up to cause there was No T.V. (or so we thought) and it was very interesting to see how much the baby’s heart rate fluctuate.  Still waiting, two hours later there is a shift change and a new nurse comes into our room and was awesome. She should us how to use the T.V., we had NO clue it was a T.V. it looked like a monitor or something. So I was in a better mood after that.  Then they give me an IV, a shot, and draw blood. Fine, fine, fine. The shot they gave me gave me the super shakes. I looked like I was freezing. 

When the Doctor did my ultrasound when we got there she informed me of something new. My placenta location. It’s on the right side of me. Which is not a big deal, but makes a breech baby harder to turn, Lovely.  

I had myself pumped up and talked myself into doing this, and was prepared for the pain and was just going to push through it all.

So the two Doctors come back in and start the procedure. The one doc starts by pushing his head. While it is very uncomfortable it wasn’t totally horrible.  And he did eventually budge a little after several tries. Then the other doctor begins trying to push up his legs. Thats when the pain got completely unbearable. I’d like to think I have a high pain tolerance, I”ve been through a lot of shit ya know… But Oh My Goodness! I don’t know what she was pushing his little legs down on but I just started crying. It was so intense, it immediately made my back cramp up with pain and we had to stop. So they did move him a bit and said hopefully that will give him a push in the right direction for him to do the rest on his own.  

I was totally crying after they all left the room and it was just Mercer and I. Pregnancy just makes you so emotional.  I still felt as though I somehow failed… The Doctor told me straight up that it’s going to be pretty hard to get him to turn because of my placenta location but we would give it a shot. Finally after all that, an hour later we got to leave! I was so happy to leave there. I was starving cause I hadn’t eaten all day. They wanted me to only have a small breakfast so less space in the tummy would be taken up.  

So now I have a follow up appt. tuesday morning with my doctor.  She will pretty much just check me out and make sure the baby hasn’t turned and then schedule me the C-Section for some time in my 39th week. I’m just praying that I don’t go into labor before hand.  I’ve been having very small, faint contractions the past week. 

By the time we got to dinner the baby had already moved back into his favorite position . His head right up under neath my ribs on the right side. He said he’s comfy there and doesn’t want to move…So he can stay there! I want him to do what he wants. Part of the reason I was so sad yesterday was cause I didn’t want to hurt him. He’s had it pretty easy so far and it just made me sad thinking about them shoving him around in there and deliberately trying to make him uncomfortable so he would move…So we are excited for his arrival, whichever way he chooses to come. 

It made me reflect a little bit yesterday on how thankful I am to have Mercer. I feel bad for pregnant mother’s that don’t have a good support person. I mean, they could be married and the husband could just be of no help what-so-ever…I’m greatful my support person is my husband and he’s very good at it.  I couldn’t have made it this far wtihout him by my side.  He’s so excited about the baby, it makes me so happy. He was pretty much ready to have him yesterday he said.  

The rest of the night I just relaxed. I was exhausted, and my stomach and back were pretty sore. 

After my next doctors appt. I will update everyone as for what is next!

Seriously, she is the ONLY person (aside from Merce) that I am not afraid to ask for help. Probably cause she doesn’t even really give me a chance to ask. I wake up and she’s done my dishes already and is folding laundry. Mom’s are awesome! I can’t wait for her to be back. Cause every day is getting harder for me and I get less and less accomplished each day. Rocky is the one who suffers most from this though. It makes me super sad for him right now.

Anyways, Our weekend was pretty nice even though I didn’t accomplish anything I wanted to really. Besides hanging out with friends.

Friday I stayed in bed until about 3pm. I slept horribly all Thursday night an was puking. No fun. I hate stress. So I finally got up and decided to attempt to make myself smell better by showering before Mercer got home. We later went to Ruby Tuesdays for an early dinner. I was deeply saddened to find that they discontinued their lovely Avocado Ranch dressing. It’s one of the reasons I choose them over other establishments some times. We rented ‘Religulous’ from iTunes Friday evening and watched a little of it before Mercer passed out. What I watched was pretty smart though I must admit.

Saturday was great. Early afternoon LaNita came over and we went and got much needed pedicures. My feet were gross and my lady massaged them extra long for me. She was lovely. Later on we had company over and did a little BBQing. It was pretty delish. It was nice to hang out with our friends as a group like that. Especially cause it will probably be a little while before we are ready to do it again. Later on Steve and his girlfriend came back over to hang out and we sat around and watched a bunch of crap on youtube and break.com. Our TV is hooked up to the computer so this makes youtube viewing as a group much better and easier. I made Mercer look up stripper pole accidents, cause those are some of my favorites. Which then led to Steve telling us we needed to go to the spicy section on break.com. Which normally would’ve been fine except: When our living room blinds are open you have a perfect view of our TV. None of our neighbors ever see Mercer really, they just see my little round prego ass hobbling around the apartments. So I felt as though if the neighbors were nosey like I am and looked at our TV they would see a giant set of titties on the screen and think that the lonely little pregnant girl was up here watching Porn! So the spicy section had to go!

Sunday Morning Mercer got up and changed the breaks on his car. Apparently metal grinding isn’t very great when you are traveling back and forth from here to the bay multiple times weekly! So that gave me ample time to do some much needed studying. VACCINATIONS! I’ve been meaning to do it forever and finally did. It really grabbed my attention. I read a ridiculous amount of information online and feel so enlightened now. It really helped me make some decisions that I think are going to be good for our child future. I briefed Mercer on all of my findings and we are 100% agreed on what OUR vaccination schedule will be for our little guy. I posted some new links in my clickworthy section to the right of the page. One is for Jenny McCarthy’s website, Generation Rescue. It’s a really great site and has a lot of helpful links to get you started.

After that Billy Trevor rolled through for a minute on his way home from Tahoe. It was nice to see him and catch up with him. Maybe next year we will be in a better place and can travel to New Orleans with him. I’ve always wanted to go!

Once Bill left we went and grabbed a scrumptious lunch at the Pita Pit and then headed to Costco to buy some diapers. Later on, Mercer cooked us dinner (again, I’m lucky two nights in a row) and we rented ‘Religulous’ once again. We finally watched all of it. Bill Maher is such a smart, man. He really educated himself well before this movie. It’s a must see whether you are a believer in the heavens or not.

So now it’s monday and I’m thinking of everything I need to accomplish this week. More importantly everything that needs to be accomplished before Wednesday. We have to be ready just in case anything happens. We were supposed to finish the baby’s room this weekend, thoroughly clean my car, and get the oil changed. None of that was completed. Now I have to take my car over to the car cleaning stations in our apartments and vacuum it out myself. It’s covered in Rocky hair. I wanted to take it to get cleaned at Bob’s Roseville Carwash but now I’m too poor and need to use that money on the oil change I must get, like tomorrow. Ooops, 7,000+ miles with no oil change starts to get the husband mad at me and makes him lecture me. Which is one of the things I can’t stand. But, secretly know I deserve it.

Now for some randomness that has nothing to do with anything above…

I have such a ridiculous love/hate relationship with my cat. He literally drives me insane sometimes. And I tell him I hate him. And then after I give him whatever he wants he goes and gets all ridiculously cute and makes me love him. He is currently laying on the floor in a patch of sunlight, with his eyeballs all crazy and looks much like a Roley-Poley. Very cute.

Ok thats all! I hope everyone has a good week.

XOXO

Sorry if you tried contacting me earlier. I was taking a nice long nap! 

Tuesday afternoon I had made the decision not to go through with the Version process. I wasn’t comfortable with it all and decided I shouldn’t do it. So I called to cancel it and set up an appt. with my actual OB. (I’ve been seeing a midwife my entire pregnancy) Well I got woke up this morning from her office calling me saying that I needed to come in at 10:50 this morning cause that is her only available appt. and she will be on vacation next week. 

So on the way there I cough, and of course pee comes out so I had a nice wet spot on my jeans! Niiiiice. Anyways I get there and start talking with her and she had me tell her the reasons I was anti-version and then she starts talking to me about the c-section and all of the possible things that could happen during surgery.   Which most I were aware of. At the end she says that its going to be creating scar tissue in my stomach too. Well thats when I tell her about my surgery I’ve had before. That pretty much changed everything.  Her face dropped when I showed her my stomach.  Because I’ve had a major abdominal surgery in the past there *could* be quite a bit of scar tissue already in there. Unfortunately for me the only way you can tell how much scar tissue a person has is to open them and see. So then she tells me that I stand a 3X stronger risk of anything going awry during surgery than a “regular” person. And that she strongly, strongly recommends me doing the version to avoid surgery cause I am a bad candidate for a c-section.  Then she reminds me that having a c-sec is only going to add to the scar tissue I already have and pretty much just add to the mess I already got goin’ on in there. So I pretty much took that as *IF* I have to have a c-sec this time around that It might not be a good idea, risk wise to have another baby because I might have to have that baby c-sec as well.  She said that she wasn’t going to say that and we could cross that bridge later on.  She did do another ultrasound on me and said that my AF was good today and took drink a ton of water until my version appt. next Wednesday and to eat a very light breakfast.  The only happy part of the entire trip was that during the ultrasound we saw his lungs and he was doing breathing exercises, where he is practicing breathing with his AF.  She said that is THE best possible thing you can see on an ultrasound and that I have a very happy baby inside of me. So that did make me happy to see.

I left there crying today. I’ve never left the doctors crying like that before. I just feel totally fucked! I have anxiety about the version and it’s limited success rate, and am scared shit-less now that I am a bad candidate for surgery. That is some scary stuff.  I seriously have had a perfect pregnancy until now. I’m also pissed that my scar tissue has never been brought up my entire pregnancy until today. Never! I never asked any questions about it either, assuming if there could be complications they wouldv’e frickin’ told me! Not drop a bomb on me at 9+ months like this.  So I’m just sad about it all and scared and want my hubs but of course he won’t be home until tomorrow. HOPEFULLY EARLY!  So there’s the update as of now. 

I have my version next Wednesday at 1pm. So Please pray that it works! AND if you don’t pray send good thoughts our way!!!!

I was pretty busy today. Which is nice cause it makes my day go by so much faster.  I got a fairly early start and cleaning up around the house.  Last night I had steamed cleaned our gross carpets and so I needed to vacuum this morning. So I got that taken care of first. Then spent the a good part of the day working in the babes room.  Finally got the crib put together so I put the bedding on today and have begun trying to decorate his room a little. Im not so into the bedding and “theme” of his room as I once was so that bums me out a little bit. And the fact that I can’t paint his room now like I was originally was planning to adds to the bummage I’m feeling towards his room. His room used to be a spare room and had a zillion pictures hung up every where. I took them all down today and there are holes every where from the nails Mercer hung all the pics up with. It’s gross looking. So this weekend Mercer needs to patch all those holes up and get it looking better than it does now.

Later on after dealing with the scammers I took a quick trip to Ross to buy some candles. I literally almost urinated on myself while shopping.  I had to pee so incredibly bad, and they had no bathroom. I was pretty scared at one point. If the baby were to give me one of his fierce kicks pee wouldve for sure came out.  Holding in urine isn’t as easy as it once was for me. I don’t know why I needed to share that all with everyone.

This evening two of my BFF’s, Ryan and LaNita came to hang out for a little while with me and Ryan brought me a gift for the baby. Awesome-ness! It was nice to hang out with them for a few hours. 

Now I’m contemplating if I want to go relax in the bath or not?! Who am I kidding…The bath is like my second bed. I love relaxing baths so much. I think it’s a perfect way to end the evening. 

Goodnight!

P.S. I’m super excited that soon enough I will no longer be pregnant. The baby is pushing on what I have to believe is my Cervix and it’s pretty fucking unbearable at times.