Mercer trimmed a tree today that was covering my car in sap.

It was around 90 degrees outside today. He was covered in sweat & he was happy to do it & proclaimed just how fun it was, several times.

Let’s recap: he had fun sweating & doing manual labor for close to 2 hours.
I will never understand men. I sat in the air conditioning on my candy ass looking at a huge pile laundry I was supposed to be folding. (he later folded ALL the laundry. He had to of done something bad. I’ll update when I figure out what it was. Now that I’m thinking about it he did the dishes too. Something fishy is going on!)

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Yesterday was my THIRD Mother’s Day. WOW, I can’t believe I’ve already celebrated this wonderful Day three times.

Yesterday was a very normal day.  We didn’t do anything extravagant, I received zero “gifts” but, the day in itself was all the gift I needed.  I don’t need a super expensive piece of jewelry or really nice diaper bag every Mother’s Day, & I certainly don’t expect it.  It’s just not how we do things.  Don’t get me wrong, every once in a while, when the bank account isn’t dry we do those types of things but, we never are expectant.

 

Mercer brought me my favorite breakfast in bed yesterday morning, before Milo was even awake.  I lazed around in bed, nibbled breakfast for about an hour.  Got up & was even lazier, where I snuggled on the couch waiting for my little sleepy head Nugget to get up.  Then we snuggled & watched an episode of Barney under a blanket.

 

Finally around noon I got dressed & decided that I wanted to go buy some new yarn. I know, exciting stuff! We went as a family to the craft store…. The rest of the day was pretty boring, but perfect. Watched the Giants SWEEP Colorado, crocheted some “Granny Squares” for a blanket I’m attempting. (I’m a complete amature at crocheting), played outback, Milo peed on the potty! I finished the evening off with TOP RAMEN (fancy, right? Well it sounded good & it’s what I wanted)  for dinner while watching a few episodes of Khloe & Lamar!

 

Pretty normal day, I just got to be extra lazy, & watch shows with Kardashians in them with zero protest from the husband.  I didn’t have to change a diaper (I rarely do on the weekends though), or give a bath, or make any meals for the day. It was perfect in my book.

 

Next year hopefully My Mama doesn’t have to work so I can spend part of the day with her to celebrate. My Mom has a crazy work schedule so maybe next year it will be a little more normal & we can celebrate being Moms together!

 

 

I hope you had a relaxing, or special day if you’re a Mom.  But, just know, if it’s not what you wanted, or didn’t go as planned that happens.  It’s not always perfect.  My first Mother’s Day was AWFUL! I’ll always remember it though!  Things happen sometimes that just get in the way of a good time.  But the good thing is we get to celebrate this every year! So there’s always hope that the next one will be better! <3

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Since I found out I was pregnant with Milo, roughly 2 years & 9 months ago I have been on a journey of self improvement.  I knew that I needed to start making some real changes in my life to be the type of Mother I wanted my child to have.

 

I wasn’t always the nicest person.  I mean, I didn’t just walk around being a general asshole but, I never bit my tongue. If I thought something (negative or positive) you & everyone else knew it.  I told you exactly what was on my mind.  I was extremely judgmental, and that attitude of well if you don’t like me you can go eff yourself.  I still do have that eff yourself attitude a bit. I can’t help who doesn’t like me.  I can guarantee if you knew me, really knew me as the person I am today you’d like me. I can not help any false impressions people may have of me. I do feel like a lot of people have a false impression of me lately, for whatever reasons. But, again all I can do is continue to be the person that makes me happy, and I am really happy.

 

Finally 2 & three quarter years later I am genuinely happy with the person I am. The life I live, & the people I surround myself with.  This weekend was a turning point in that realization. I was pulling Milo & our dog & Cookie Monster in Milo’s new wagon, while my husband rode his bike next to us & was just overwhelmed with happiness.  I kept feeling the need to just randomly blurt out,

“I’m so happy”

“life is really good”

“I’m so Happy”

Repeat over and over again.

 

I was coming down from a super happy high of Milo’s Birthday BBQ we celebrated Saturday afternoon. That day was just amazingly perfect & I will dedicate a post to it this week.  Being surrounded with family & close friends all celebrating Milo & seeing how much each of those people genuinely love this child of mine made my heart just about explode at the seams.

 

I’ve learned how to make myself genuinely happy, & not to define my happiness by “stuff”. Or “things” we buy with money.  Spending $400 on Gucci sunglasses used to make me really happy, or a $200 dress.  But, it was never real happiness like I experience now.  What a difference it truly is.  I feel like Milo has brought me to this place & I couldn’t be more grateful.  To not define happiness by stuff or how much $$$ is in the bank is an amazing feeling.  (don’t get me wrong, I still like pretty things but my happiness is definitely not defined by those things like it sadly once was)

 

I’m happy & confident in the Mother that I am.  With each day that passes I know more & more that having Milo when we did was the best decision we have ever made.  The first year was rough, & a major transition but we made it, & here we are already celebrating another year past.

 

I’m in love with My husband so much, & the Father he is to my son. He truly is the Father I dreamed up in my head of my future children having, years ago.  He’s everything I always wanted my own Father to be, but never was.  He is head over heels in love with Milo & every single thing Milo does. Milo can punch him in the face & He would say something like ” yeah it hurt, but did you see how cute his little fist was when he was doing it…..” You know, just true love.  He works extremely hard to provide us with the necessities we need, and to make Milo happy. I never have had to battle him over changing a diaper, or making Milo’s lunch, or giving him a bath or anything. We are each other’s biggest parenting cheer leaders, we are quick to remind each other of what a good parent one & other are & I think that’s needed some times.  Mercer can be oblivious to a lot of things I do but, he never has a blind eye to the job I’m doing as a Mother, & that speaks volumes to me.

 

Our Marriage is in a really good place. That makes me happy.

 

I Love my friends dearly & am working towards being a more present friend.

 

I’m getting along with all my siblings at the same time. This is a big deal to me.

 

My Mom is here. She gets to see Milo a few times a week & it makes me so happy that Milo has two Grandmas that love & adore him the way that My Grandmothers did with me (& all of their grandchildren) I had an unexplanable relationship with My Grandma Mariam (in the best way possible, her & I were meant to be in each others lives) & am so happy that Milo will get to have some serious Grandma love as he grows up. Grandmas were a big part of my happiness in my younger years & I have so many fond Memories of those times.

 

I’m 8-10 pounds heavier than I was before I was pregnant & feel prettier & more confident than I have ever.

 

 

Over all , the above things combined make this girl over the moon, heart bursting, rainbow farting HAPPY!

 

It feels really good!

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Saturday evening Mercer & I shared our first date night in what seems like a real forever.  No exaggeration at least 6 months.  I’m very attached to Milo & extremely protective over whom we leave him with, so it just doesn’t seem to happen all too often for us.  The offer of his Grandparents watching him Saturday evening presented itself & we took it without batting an eyelash!  We wanted to have a nice dinner out to celebrate our seven years together.

 

After Milo was settled in at his Gigi & Papa’s we headed to the restaurant (where we were planning on using our gift card we had been saving).  We ordered a drink from the lovely bar & headed to our table where we were greeted with a bottle of Sparkling Wine & the lovely note below:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Mercer’s wonderful parents arranged to have our entire evening taken care of.  We were not expecting that, at all.  We were so touched by their thoughtfulness.

 

We had an amazing evening together. We talked, & talked, & talked.  It was so nice to talk about things that we usually never get to get too in depth about.  It was so, so, so needed.  I’ve had a bad past few weeks emotionally, it was a wonderful gift to get out for the evening & truly forget about anything that was previously bothering me & enjoy the evening with my Love.  (& do to unexpected emergency car repairs I had to cancel my plans with my girlfriends earlier in the day to get my car fixed. I was so bummed out about that.)

 

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This was amazing. In the center was a Black Truffle Custard. Mmmmm.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I HATE mushrooms, but these? I could’ve eaten all day. Delectable to say the least.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

When we got back to the house to pick Milo up we got a very sweet & nice report from his Grandparents. Hearing your child is a pleasure to watch & was an Angel is always a wonderful thing to hear as a parent.

 

It was such a nice evening.  For all of us.

 

I can’t wait for the next date night.

 

xo

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