Seriously.

It’s 5:30 pm & I’m drowning myself in chocolate cake. I really don’t even eat sweets! The thing is, I don’t drink that much either. I had cake in the house, I didn’t have any alcohol. But, holy hotcakes is My child driving me bonkers. I should also mention that Milo is taking a nap I just put him down for. Yeah…at 5:30pm. STOP it, I can feel you judging me!

I had to make him take another nap. He was overly tired, & I was overly tired of him.

For the past 2 weeks Milo has been going through some sort of change. Every day it is countless hours of whining. Like, everything he says is said in a whining tone. TRUST ME, it would make Mother Theresa go bonkers!  He’s also been more defiant than usual. Whining + Shitheadedness = Chocolate-Cake-Coma-Mama.

My husband has a long daily schedule. He leaves at 5am & usually gets home somewhere around 7pm. Mon-Fri. I am solely responsible for Milo in that time frame. You’re like “yeah, so what, your ARE his Mom?!” And I’m like..gonna go crazy.

You see…I never really get a legitimate break. A break from Mothering. Sure after he goes to sleep at night I do but that SO doesn’t count. I’m not even talking like him & his Dad go out for a few hours & do boy stuff on the weekends or anything. We do everything as a family on the weekends because we pretty much have an hour together each week night & that’s not a lot.  & really? It’s all my fault. I never let anyone watch Milo. VERY rarely, over night? Unfuckingheardof. I can’t bring myself to do it. I guilt myself, or tell myself he will hate it & be upset, & ohmygod how could I send him away when all he wants is ME? How sad.  The thought of him being overnight somewhere & being upset because he wants his parents breaks my heart & I wouldn’t want to put him through that. Or make him feel like I don’t want him around or something.

But, I have to tell you, I need to get over it. Seriously. Milo has spent the night with someone for a weekend when he was 6months old & that’s it. Aside from that he’s never been away from me for more than a few hours.

It’s catching up to me. I notice my patience getting thinner, me being snappier, it taking less & less for me to get my feathers ruffled. I hate it. Sometimes I think I can actually feel my blood pressure rising. I truly think a little break now & again would be healthy for all three of us. Mercer & I never ever everrrrrrrr even go on dates. We’ve had like one in god knows how long.

So, I think next week I’m going to let my Mother take him over night. My Mother lives with my Brother & his family & Milo loves his cousins. I think he will have a great time. I’m going to try my hardest to not let myself get in the way of it. I BET he would even have fun.  I’m hoping a break like that will leave me feeling more refreshed so I can be a better Mom. For the record: I think I am an excellent Mother. I don’t even care if that makes me sound like I have a big head. Everything I do is with Milo in mind. My world revolves around being the best Mother I can be for him, & I don’t think I do a bad job at it. He’s always my priority, that’s why I think this is important. Other than Mercer & I, My Mom is one of his absolute favorite people & he’s always comfortable with her. I know he will be safe in their home! For heavens sake my Brother is a police officer, with a police dog at their home! I don’t really know where he would be more safe or loved than there!

So maybe I’ll have a refreshing post update next week. Or maybe I’ll be 8lbs heavier from chocolate cake?!

Pretty much for the past four days, at some point in the day Milo has brought up Austyn, Chrystian, & Bailey.  His cousins.  On his own he just randomly starts saying their names together to me.  Like he misses them or wants to see them.  This is really the first time he’s brought up friends or family, completely unprompted.  He says almost all our family member names when asked or when we are talking about them but, this is really the first time he comes and talks to me about any of them all on his own.  I guess spending his birthday with the three of them made an impact on him, he had more fun than I even knew.  I think it’s really cute, & sweet.  For the record he’s been obsessed with Austyn for a while. He’s talked about “Austy” daily, & called every tween/teen boy he’s seen Austy. But, he’s talking about all three of them together now & I find it incredibly endearing & adorable.

From his birthday.

Things that make me laugh:

Mercer tells Milo he has a Peepee.

I tell Milo he has a Penis.

Milo refers to it as his Peepis.

A little confused but, makes me laugh every time he says it.

Peepis.

via: weheartit

Today was Milo’s 2 year well nugget visit.  For Milo’s first year of life we had Kaiser which was great but our coverage ended & we had to go with a bit of a more budget friendly plan since we have to pay 100% for health coverage.  Unfortunately I had to switch Doctors for him as well.  The past year with that has been a bumpy road. I some how picked a bad Doctor for him & had to switch Doctors again.  So, Today was his first visit at his new Doctors office.

He hates the Doctors office.  Like, pretty much everything to do with it besides the Finding Nemo playing in the waiting room & the free stickers. Otherwise…the Doctor can SUCK IT as far as he is concerned.  The only part Milo cooperated with was taking stickers & having his ears checked.  Everything else he pretty much made the Doctor work for.

Overall he is perfect. (duh!) Doesn’t seem to show any apparent health concerns or learning delays.  His picky eating is OK.  We need to lose the paci though. Our plan is to toss them this weekend & pray to baby paci jesus for the best!

We didn’t end up getting any immunizations today.  We have to go back next week for them because we are waiting for his official med records to be sent to the new office.  Which we were OK with.  Gives me a bit more time to decide what immunizations to get first.  I don’t talk about it a lot on here but, we’ve had a bit of a “custom” vaccine schedule.  He will get most of his vaccines but, when we choose.  He’s only had the DTAP & Polio so far. Once at 6 months & once at 1 yr.  So we are a bit behind on the boosters for those because we’ve had a crazy time finding a good Doctor.   But, I think I really like this new Doctor.  They made me comfortable about our vaccine choices & not like a crazy hippy.  Now that Milo is two,  I’m more comfortable with him receiving vaccines. I just really wanted him to have a good immune system built up before he received some of the vaccines.  And he is a healthy-healthy boy! So, I’m more comfortable with it all now.  I still only like him to get one vaccine at a time.  So we might have a couple of pokey visits coming up, which I’m sure will make him hate the Doctor even more.

OK, the nitty gritty.  This is a close approximation because Milo wasn’t overly cooperative with the office visit, remember:

Height: 36”    95%

Weight: 29lbs. (with shoes on)    77%

Head: 19”    52% (that’s like the lowest yet I think. His body finally caught up to his giant noggin.)

I forgot to ask percentiles & they didn’t offer them up, it was a hectic visit to say the least. But I found this handy calculator so the above percentiles have been created according to it.