17 months have came and gone.

Within a true blink of an eye. Read the rest of this entry…

I’ve made it no secret the recent, constant struggles we’ve been facing trying to get MJ to eat. He despises his highchair, & as of last week also hates food.  He literally lived off of Nutra-Grain bars for a week straight. I’m not even exaggerating about that either. It had me in tears a few nights & my anxiety level would rise at meal times.  I finally decided to just relax about it, give him options through out the day & hope he eats! Read the rest of this entry…

A few weeks ago Mercer (after a lot of convincing) and I decided that we were going to take a vacation at the end of the year. We’ve never been on a real vacation together, and I’ve never been on one, period. Well out of the country at least. So this is a birthday trip for me -slash- little honeymoon, since we never took one after getting married. While I’m seriously excited, I also have terrible anxiety over it.

We decided on Puerto Rico. It was between there and Mexico. The drug ring/war stuff going on down there scared us so we decided not to go there like we were originally planning. Bonuses of going to Puerto Rico are: No passports required, and they are very US friendly, and uses US currency.

Now here is where my multi-faceted anxiety comes in:

• Where to stay? Do we want to stay in the main tourist area, San Juan, or do we want to venture down somewhere else like, Fajardo. We do not want to rent a car while there and heard it’s a good idea to do if you stay in Fajardo.  But, we aren’t looking to do much while there, eat, drink, beach, repeat.  The main reason I want to stay down there is because I’d like to take a day trip to Flemenco Beach. It’s supposed to be one of the best beaches in the world according to the Discovery Channel.  If we stayed in San Juan we most likely would never see Flemenco Beach and would probably end up spending less money.
• Next major anxiety?  Leaving My child for 5 days.  This is killing me. To the point where I keep contemplating the trip all together. My fears are insane. I’m insane. I fear things like an Tsunami will hit, kill us, MJ has no parents now.  Or I fear that something will happen to him and I won’t be able to get an immediate flight out of PR to get back to the states.  Last fear, that he will think we’ve abandoned him.  =(
• Then I have the added little things like finding a house sitter and some one to take care of the dog for 5 days.

So, I have a lot to figure out and get over. I’m determined not to let my anxiety win. We deserve a vacation, baby free.  We will see how it goes.  I just need to book our airfare ASAP then I will GO. I’ll have to go.

Really, How can I let myself miss out on this beach?

I bought MJ a potty chair a few weeks ago. Yes, I do realize he is only 15 1/2 months old. But, I figured it wasn’t too early to get him used to the idea of it. He can “sign” the word potty but, of course never when he’s actually going. Read the rest of this entry…